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Boss’s Day, the other B-Day

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October 15th, 2010 Posted 10:56 pm

Did you know today was boss’s day? I didn’t either because its not a real holiday!

But apparently our Admin Assistant thinks it is. She whispered to me early this morning that we and my cubicle partner, Mij, should get balloons and gift cards. So I say, “Yea that’s a great idea, I’ll pull out some money at lunch.” But noooo. Admin “genius” has this fantastic idea, but she has no time on her lunch. Can’t I go get balloons and cards for both bosses?

I said I’d talk about it with Mij. Mij is already late and irritated because her mom was being needy this morning and she is like WTF when I tell her we’ll be the ones getting the celebratory items today but finally agrees that she needs a break anyways.

So I go on my lunch and battle another woman at Hallmark searching for the “right” cards and then my boyfriend calls me because left his keys at work and he can’t get in the apt. LOL. I go home and make us some sandwiches and by the time I sit down to eat mine, it’s time to get back in my car and drive to work or else I’m going to be late. Fuck it, I’ll just be late. I’m cramping and PMS-ing and not in the mood for any more BS today.

When I get back to work, I show the Admin “genius” the cards I bought. Then she asks me, “What about John?

What about him? Well, didn’t I get John something too? Now why would I get the Marketing guy something on boss’s day? He’s not my boss. If I get John something, then I’d have to get all the managers something. I didn’t even want to get something or even spend any money today. This wasn’t even my idea. Why don’t you do it????

When she comes back from lunch she tells me this story about how she had to go to four different stores to find something for Boss’s Day.
Me: were u going to get the balloons?
Admin “genius”: Could we just get them at the same place?
The Vons in La Verne has a nice card and balloon section.
Or maybe Mij could run out while Linda is at lunch.
I just won’t have time today!
Me: hmm, thats not how i wanted to spend my lunch today. but i will talk to Mij
Admin “genius”: Yea, I understand.
We don’t have to do anything.
Me: ill see how much time i have on my lunch and Mij’s
Mij: daaang  u laid it down wit the ” thats not how i wanted to spend my lunch today”

FML >:( grrr.

But in the end, the Admin assistant pitched in some money. And the thank you from my boss made it totally worth it. She was gushing and smiling and even had the card opened on her desk the rest of the day.

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Under the Milky Way

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October 15th, 2010 Posted 12:26 am

Sometimes when this place gets kind of empty,
Sound of their breath fades with the light.
I think about the loveless fascination,
Under the milky way tonight.

-The Church

It’s haunting me
sayings “Alllllex, this is all a dream.
You don’t really have this job, apt, boyfriend
You are 21 and unhappy…again

September 29
The week had been sweltering hot, extremely stupid for September, when the heat would seem more appropriate in July or August. My apartment only has the one wall unit of A/C in the living room, which provides no relief to my bedroom. So once again I am forced to drag my mattress out into the living room and turn up the air.

But at 3 a.m. the room had changed on me. I’m not sure what it was, but it seemed different than it was three hours earlier. Under the Milky Way was playing on the radio. I recognized that. I was sweating and a little dizzy, hot and thirsty. Shadows thrown against the walls deceived me. I stared at the ceiling and thought of all the other times I’ve stayed awake and looked up at the ceiling: insomnia at the parents’ home, waking up in the middle of the night at another’s house. And I can’t get up or make noise or do anything buy lay there quietly and collect my thoughts.

Laying in bed uncomfortable and sweating is nothing new and I began to float into memories of the past of summers good and bad. It was a random summer day, sometime in middle school. After a cold shower I put on the A/C. My hair felt like icicles framing my face. It was so freezing, but relaxing. Then my dad came home with Subway sandwiches and we watched Star Wars Episode 4.

Fading to summer after 9th grade, I walked hand in hand with this jewish boy I liked to the bowling alley for some 99 cent bowling. Then forward to 21, staring at the ceiling, thinking that I need to leave my boyfriend instead of sleeping over here. And what was I doing here anyways?

And then I had the sudden urge to go home. To the parents’ house. I kept thinking, “I shouldn’t be here, I should be in my own bed at home with my parents.” But I was in my bed! This was my mattress and I was home. I have been living here for one year. But that’s not what my brain was thinking. It was thinking, “I have to drive home, my parents are worried about me.”

I looked over at my boyfriend sleeping and for a second didn’t recognize him: his hair, his breathing his feet peeking out of the sheet.

“Ut oh, now I’m really in trouble. What would my parents say to me coming home so late on a weekday?”

And then came a horrible thought: You don’t really have this job, apt, boyfriend.
You are 21 and unhappy…again.

What was going on?

Llike hellooooo I’ve been living here for a year and all of a sudden I was homesick? I think the prospect of possibly moving soon has gotten to me and my nerves and errupted into breif amnesia. The hot weather sent me back, like Scrooge, through memories of summers past from last year all the way back to middle school. I just kept thinking, my life is so different from what it used to be: last year, two years ago, five years ago. But all those memories are in the past.

I think my nerves and the weather were getting to me. So I crawled onto the couch, layed directly in front of the A/C and slowly fell asleep next to Dora.

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